neglectful me!

Haven't had proper internet access due to 1..laptop cable keepk dieing i have to hold it in with one hand and type with the other...the new cable turned up today..also just got  round to buying a battery especially will want it for summer sitting in the garden or rather wallowing like a buffalo in the kiddies paddling pool and 2..my laptop keeps turning itself off..its an overheating problem thankfully which is sorted by simply blasting cold air from the hairdryer into the vents to blow off dust . What have a been up to? not a great deal to be honest. Did some tutition at work, 12 hour day for £80 seems a bit silly, its quite intensive and involves 2 X 45 min journeys and the journey back is freezing cold , dark and hardly anyone at the station, thankfully i was rescued by a very good dim08 friend who text me to ask if we where on the same train..unfortunatly we where not but the texts cheered me up, i just felt completely vunerable..it's amazing what pregnancy does to you..and i know self defense!  Well i have a very bad desire to cast lots of knitting crochet and sewing on gah , im being so flighty and going from one project to the next have no idea why, hope to finish at least one wip today and possibly 2 more larger ones by the end of next week. I also have a terrible desire to clean clean clean! Ive not really wanted to be on the net either im just enjoying being a hermit at the moment, i like being a hermit it means nothing upsets me because i know nothing about anything, sometimes ignorance can be bliss!..whats going on with me? Still chasing up my 12 week scan appointment and im 11 weeks today, seems all i seem to be doing in this pregnancy chasing midwives. Some good news , apparently my consultant  will still advise me against it because of my previous section, however, i have it on good authority he's fairly pro home birth and all for womens choices (i accidently talked to his colleage..praise be the powers of facebook!)
so fingers crossed, although im definatly wanting one i whouldn't be stupid and first sign of any stress on the scar im off to the hossi, but oddly that old statement about wanting to moniter closely the scar whilst in labour is total twaddle because when i had my vbac i was left alone  for 45 mins - 1.30 hours a time  and if i had rang the bell and the midwife had been deylaed it whould most likely take her longer to attend to me than it whould for an ambulance to pick me up and take me to the hospital. Almost all my symptoms have gone im just now a hungery hippo and have taken to taking off my travel bands a bit at a time,  its worrying though as whilst i found the beans hb on the doopler ive not heard anything in days.  Come on scan date. Re yellow bump gahhh..i want to find out and  i don't , dh really does but i know if he knows ill just pester him until he tells me, so i think i will just find out, but not tell any family especially my mum as she will hopefully by my other birth partner..anyway im waffeling .

nb total savings towards loft conversion £1400/15,000 (this is before adding any from this months wages)..good news there our best friend works for a plumbing and timber company and will give us his card which he is allowed to do so we should get all the materials at trade + vat cost..saving a ton!